Depressed, But Not Broken

During my 4th and final psychiatric hospitalization, I remember lying in my hospital room crying uncontrollably.  The blood-stained bandage over my left forearm hid a self-inflicted wound; a message carved with a blade reading “LIFE SUCKS.” I was 17 years old and struggling with Major Depression, anxiety, and passive suicidal ideations.  By then I had…

Choose Love. Choose Joy.

In my journey of personal transformation, I’ve learned the things we desire most, like wealth, love, and happiness, don’t happen by accident, but by consistently practicing thoughts and habits that align with those states of being.  Many of us are waiting for circumstances to change on their own so that we can feel better; as a…

3 Signs You Aren’t Loving Yourself

What is Love? Love: a loaded word with extremely subjective meaning.  Some of us see the word and feel inspired, while others of us are triggered by memories of disappointment, abandonment, or an extreme sense of longing. Love, despite its subjectivity, is a universal concept.  People all over the world are reaching for alignment with it…

Nah.

Dear Old “Friend:” I thought about our last interaction, and how intolerant I was, and had been with you for some time. Perhaps my harshness seemed out of hand, and lacking in understanding. You’re a good Christian man, who aims to take the high road and forgive. And perhaps you feel I should have been…

The Enemy in the Mind

The mind is an interesting and somewhat crowded place.  It houses all of our memories, our thoughts, and our emotions.  It is also our body’s biological operational manual and manager, carrying enormous amounts of information and sending out thousands (if not millions) of directives to cells responsible for stimulating the action of every gland, organ,…

An Open Letter To My Ex, One Year Later

You didn’t hurt me. The hurt parts of me were attracted to you. You grated your emotional unavailability against old wounds and tore their scabs away. I bled out; I had to let the poison of my past all the way out. The hurt parts of me loved you. The wounded parts of me thought you were the one. The healed me knows better.

Red Flags & Mind Games

On the first date with an ex, he told me he was confused about monogamy. His stance was very wishy washy. One moment he thought it wasn’t natural or possible. The next moment, he said he felt he needed to work through that confusion in therapy in order to have a meaningful relationship. He said…

The Difference Between Emotional Vampires/Abusers and Sensitive People

Some people like to hide their emotional abuse or vampirism as “Sensitivity.” Narcissists and psychopaths are especially good at mimicking emotions like sadness in order to get their way. Here’s how you can tell if someone is just sensitive, or if someone is actually attempting to manipulate, control, or abuse you emotionally:

When a Flower Blooms in a Dark Room…

Why did I leave Facebook for a while? Why did I break from Social Media (or social mediocrity as I call it now…haha)? What did I do during that time? What did I learn? I traveled and saw parts of the world I never thought I’d see. I read books and expanded my breadth of…